Yeah raya is tomorow. now i can relaxx from school work .
just w8ting for the PMR to past.
then i can "PONTENG"hahahahaa
who want to join me ..
hye guys dun forget bagi aq duit rye .....
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
The reason i call my life a living hell
Althought i suppose to live a happy life .
i can't with all the stress coming from my family and life issue
from my family is my mom,little brother and my little sister
they always hurting my feeling but not supporting me like all family should.
sometime when i see somebody who his family cheer him on i feel sad while my family dun even cheer me on
when sport days when i won the 2 gold medal for lontar peluru dan lempar cakera they dun even look happy when i show them the medal
when my UPSR result i got 3A' and 2B' my mother didn't even care about it and tell me to work hard get 5A'
when my little brother got 5A' she tell all her friend and didn't say a word about me.
when my mother know my little brother got 5A' she hurriedly go buy him a WII console
i felt like i was never exist and i felt left alone in my life.
while my little brother treat me like i am his maid or something call me stupid and always bragging about his UPSR result.
while in school , i got bullied ,called names and lot more from my primary to secondary.
when i was in primary my mom said no fighting .
when i got punch i didn't even fight back they call me a loser ,a fatass and many more.
and when my mom come to school they call me mommy boy.
when i got in secondary i change alot i gone much more evil inside of me then what i feel in my primary times.
i began to fight more and get more and more aggressive than ever.
till one day i almost choke my friend to death.
i keep hearing voice in my head to killed all that hurting you.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Trust of a mother of mine gone
Today i felt so sad when my mum call and tell i took her 50 dollor
i think my mum lost trust in me .
that trust is hard to get but now she think i'm a theif or some kind or criminal.
this is so bad and i think i should run away to somewhere.
i feel so sad deep inside of me
this is the feeling that i didn't want to feel again since 3 years ago.
where i found my mother rm10000+ ring behinde the sofa and she said i stole it and hid there
she didn't believe me and she keep she scolded me to tell her the truth but she think i'm lying
i wished that i die early.
the next day she apologize to me about the scolding
i said "i forgive you" but my heart said "i will never forgive you for that"
i got lots of bruise and line on my back because she whack me with belt.
till now i still can't forget that day and i still wish i die...
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Lonely side of me....
since my girlfriend move to new york , I been so lonely but we still connected by facebook .
now the lonely side of me just arise from my heart.
Without her i felt empty and in sorrow.
i wish that she will come into my arm again.
she been telling me story about her life in new york.
and i told mine..
she was also wishing that she can come back to malaysia to see me.
i can't wait to that day come.
Monday, June 6, 2011
Change in way
hi blog readers,
Today i had a terrible day with my mom and my freaking life ... Can't wait to die in peace..
i bet it will be much better that doing sin in my life for the last 15 years of my life.. My mom can't stop insulting me and making me do thing she lazy to do..Is that what u call a mother ..
I realize that i change a lot in the past week. For instance, i started to talking to my reflection and i feel like it is answering my question and need. One time i saw my eye change to red in colour and a strange deep voice came out from my reflection........It say 'Saya datang untuk membalas dendam kepada orang yg sakiti kamu'
I was afraid that somebody will get hurt or worse from this. I told my mom but she say it was my imagination and just in my head. At first i though that to but every time i look into the mirror i spoke to me. and bad thing happen to me......
please help me.....:(
Monday, February 14, 2011
Lol Feel lonely again
Today so lonely that i wanna sing this song
this how i feel since i was 9 years old
Thursday, February 10, 2011
ideal gift to a vegetarian on a valentine
i see the market in USA through the internet and here what i found the ideal gift
nice right... a prefect heart..
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
never find love.....
i suddenly think about couple..
lol... i never believed in love..
and i hate being single
but i will never find love till i die.. and everyone knows that.
i'm sometime so jealous when somebody say "aku couple dgn (nama si dia)"
i think love will never come to me
well it is a fact
just now at school a freaking girl said behind my back talking to his friend
"ko rase budak pengawas tu ada GF tk "
her friend reply
"tk mungkin dh la gemuk dan tk handsome"
i felt so angry and i said loudly but not looking at them
"diam arr ckp orang entah dia pun single dh muka mcm puki"
they just shut up
hmmm maybe it is my destiny
Monday, February 7, 2011
crocodilain fun .
Yesterday my mom,little sis ,my untie and me went to a crocodile farm in teluk senget(it at kota tinggi)
it was fun to see crocodile eating, fighting ,whacking and mamy more....
here are some pic i take at the farm..
there is a lot of pic but u can see it at this link below...
and i even get to hold a crocodile...(just a baby...)
and almost forgot .. there are pic that crocodile without a tail
just search the pic a the link above^^^^^^^^^
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
chinese new year reunion dinner
yesterday i have a chinese new year reunion dinner it was great but i didn't eat the pork (hehehe are u guys crazy.. i can't eat pork) well the old women is my grandma and beside her is my cousin... here some other pic to seee
..
this is my untie and uncle and my untie with the pink shirt is kind of a shy when coming to taking pic.... hehehe
the guy with the blue shirt is wang2 i hate him so much beside him is my beautiful cousin she is just 16 but look like a model
here some food we ate
huh ... i think it call nee sang or something i forget (pls comment and tell me the correct spelling)
and this is my fav .. shark fin soup with extra gravy
this i dun know te name but it taste good....
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
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